Birthday Reflection 2020


 

Another birthday around the corner to celebrate or commemorate. I think I am settling with a commemoration. Birthdays are low key for me. I rarely had birthday parties and don’t have a plan to have either on this birthday or any other birthday for that matter. I think birthdays are overrated. That doesn’t mean that I don’t mark the date or it is not important to me. It is an important date since my legal existence starts on the day I was born. 

I had been fortunate to have people who made the day special for me. Family and friends went out of their way to surprise me with love and occasional birthday cakes and I am grateful to have them all in my life. Though I am not keen on celebrating my birthday I always try to do important things around this date. I am not a person who makes resolutions on a birthday or a new year but instead of making them I found that this time is a good time to self-reflect and see where I am as a person. Not as to what goals I have achieved or should set but to see if the way I live my life is meaningful at least to me and hopefully for others and the universe. Even if I am just a very tiny tiny part of it, I am still part of it so I should be important and significant in a way.



2020 was a different year for the world many went through and are still in difficult conditions. All over the world people are struggling with their finance, physical and mental health. Some had to endure injustice, war, and displacement on top of that. I am grateful that I have a roof over my head, food on my plate, health, and sanity. It might seem too basic but billions don’t have it at this time and I am mindful of how important it is. Of course, there are always emotional up and downs and questions I ask myself which I don’t have the right answers to if there are any but I feel that I am more grounded now to be able to see things as they are and always reminding myself that nothing is permanent. 

Again, I will take my self-portrait to document my impermanence. A picture to show how I look at the end of 2020 around my birthday as I have done for a few years now. This will be a good reminder that every day I live there is a new me because part of me is dying and part of me is being reborn more in a spiritual way than physical. Every single day there is a new me evolving, all I have to do is be mindful to try to be a better me. The process of aging is inevitable but becoming a better person is a choice and needs effort and work which I promised myself to do so that my life is meaningful to me and to others.

 

 

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